Depressive Episode Keto

So this week I considered killing myself.  My mind was nowhere near where it normally is… ultimately I obviously did not; however, I cannot discount my diet as part of the problem.  I have been a binge eater for 19 years, and I have found it quite easy not to binge on keto– yet I haven’t learned how to deal with the emotions that I have suppressed with food for years.

 

This is a learning experience.  Mainly just some notes right now, I am upping my carbs to 10% of my diet, and keeping fat at about 70% I need to keep myself from going off the deep end, so this is my answer at the moment.  Also checking in with a dr and counselor 🙂

 

 

When the Scale Won’t Move or goes UP

Gosh Saturday I was higher than a kite! Down 17 lbs and counting.  I mentioned I was struggling to see any more weight loss and I was curious to see what this week holds… so far it held dropping .8 lbs than putting 3 lbs back on.  My calories are still in the 1200 ranges, however,  my protein, fat and carbs  balance is weigh off.

Yesterday, I was all excited because I found a chocolate bar that a serving of would work within my goals. Not going to post brand, because for some people it is probably fine.  For me it triggered eating like I used to eat and I wasn’t choosing healthy standards.  I had corn pops… I don’t even LIKE corn pop. Sipped on soda–again flavors I don’t even like and topped of the night with a few spoonfuls of mac and cheese.

Felt sick for the rest of the night and now this morning I feel like crap. The scale made me sad and I am back on the wagon.  Carbs beget carbs… the cravings and uncontrollable desire was so real.  Holy smokes.  Addiction isn’t easy to get over.

Thank goodness I have someone in my corner who is in the fitness industry helping me not give up.  Get yourself a diligent support person… you are going to need it.

Trying to stay positive and hopefully my weigh in video will leave me happy again on Saturday!